Charlotte

In my daydreams thoughts deceive me
just to prove my nightmares are real
Pain forever, live together
It's my poison, felt one by one
Just set me free, I want to die

Fear, it drives me, walks beside thee
It points the way to immortality
Where no one cares, and no one stares
One forgotten, your begotten
Left to walk alone, this thought I share

Take me to a place where I can't breath
and I will open my eyes
so wearily, only to see
For the first time, nursery rhymes
that live inside my head have come to life

The night covers me in blackness
the one color to touch my skin
Take me tonight, it's my midnight
When I give in, living my sin

Why must I live that feeling when I'm alone, awake at night
One I left behind forever calls to me, it's love you see
Only took a moment for me to embrace
But trying to forget, an eternity
Joy, a distant memory... pain,  just yesterday
Hard for me to separate, it's all the same to me

So easy to trust when you're in love, the pain just goes away
Pushed aside again by memories just born and dreams to come
Destined to relive my past and all of my mistakes
Love is blind I know and I have never seen
Show me through your actions that you really care
I love you is nice to hear but words don't compare

All the same, play this game
Find a reason to cast blame
Always they, never I
Falls on deaf ears, what a shame
Love isn't true love til you give of yourself completely
Love isn't to be true to you
You've got to be true to love

Always in my mind what I want him to be, to say to me
Know who I am now and know me yesterday and tomorrow
Now I see him with that girl, hand in hand as one
Walking in my shadow, too much pain to bear
Show me through your actions that you really care
I love you is nice to hear but words don't compare

All the same, play this game
Find a reason to cast blame
Always they, never I
Falls on deaf ears, what a shame
Love isn't true love til you give of yourself completely
Love isn't to be true to you
You've got to be true to love

Hope is faith, faith is trust
Keep in mind the truth you must
So be sure and endure
To deny would be unjust
If you keep looking you will find
Your true love left behind
So be content with what you have
Then you can be true to love

Things I thought I wanted were there... attraction, the love, the fun
If only I listened to my mind for once instead of lust
I'd be holding hands now with the one I love
Now I'm left a stranger I will soon forget
The mistakes are not only his to make
I realize I make them all the same as well

The cold winter air leaves me falling
A flower pedal that strays afar in his rain
The wind carries me, I sail alone, drenched in tears
Lifted in his hands I wait to be seen and heard
The long journey awaits, since I became
Amongst the rest, I hide no longer
Please carry me far away so to be free
It is time to let go this world
I drift away, and into his

The life I've lived means nothing now
It takes just one motion to the wind
and he'll take me in
Alter my direction to his own
Lift me into the aura
Take me beyond, I'll follow

Now cast down from the old tree I find
The sticks below cry, beckon and taunt me
They bare their true form, edges worn and old
They stare, waiting to tangle and imprison me
And now I do regret, since I became
Let me be seen, I hide no longer
Please carry me far away so to be judged
All the beauty I've had is gone
Replaced by age, my youth, my past

The life I've lived means nothing now
It takes just one motion to the wind
and he'll take me in
Alter my direction to his own
Lift me into the aura
Take me beyond, I'll follow

And I alone, petals, the sole remaining
And will I be missed by those I've left, still hanging on
It's time, taken by he, overseas at last
Our place together always known
Just forgotten

A sun does shine, its rays break free, doubt the cold
Touch me, find me, bring me peace

It's here, It's time
To skip along the meadow
The Spring has come
And singing are the Sparrows
I dance, I sing
I wander through the garden watching the birds and bees
And wonder how the Robins make their nests up in the trees
The bumblebees just floating near the blossoms with such ease
All things begin to grow
These things I want to know
How life begins when all was lost in winter's deadly cold
Now life, new life
Emerges from the barren earth leaving us to behold

The sun, the rain
I stand among the flowers
The sights, the scents
They pamper me for hours
I search to find
The most amazing flower I can cherish for life
To keep inside my mind to hide away for rainy days
To make me sing and other things that make me feel amazed
To always be my friend
Until the very end
To find perfection where others have overlooked before
There is just one
And I will keep on looking till I find one I adore

In my heart I know I'll find a flower I can claim
Perhaps a rose that always glows, it's just another name
A love so fine that's always mine, a flower just the same
Lilies, all so pretty
Tulips make me happy
Daisies are my favorite
True love, just without the game

Which one, which one?
It seems I'm always looking
I fear I'll find
The one that leaves me wanting
Have faith, keep faith
I know the perfect flower can do wonders for me
And make me sing so happily and fill my soul with glee
A lovely song where I belong, eternal melody
For things like this and that
My heart goes pitter pat
To find my sign the sun must shine and point from up above
There is just one
And I will keep on looking till I find one that's true love
To be alone, my rose unknown, this life I will forgo
As time goes by it makes me cry to ponder I don't know
And now I see, but can it be? A flower that's aglow
I reach my hand out
A perfect flower just for me
A perfect daisy just for me
A flower by another name, by another name
A flower by another name, just another name
I'm falling now
I have found, love profound, right here
Sing to me, dance with me, and reveal to me
He's real and then
I'll show my love for thee

Female
Dark obscenities racing through my dreams
Chaotic nightmares, images piercing my soul
My reflection distorts, misled perception
I’m being molded in some other form
The essence of myself seems without strength
A forward motion without effort
I am being pulled from the world known to me
Not by my hand, but my forbidden dreams

(Chorus)
There he is again
Obscure, a manly figure
A nightly cold reflection
Controlling my mind’s desire
He calls to me once more
The screaming whisper I fear
His scent an endless presence
His voice blanketing my sleep

His shape and face too real but unfamiliar
Always a step away from the dim light
His haze is bending boundaries of reality
He is the mist in which I can’t breathe
Yet to him I feel compelled to follow
His commands harsh and cold, although soothing
Who is he to define my own existence
To expect and want my submission

(Chorus)
There he is again
Haunting, he’s calling to me
I run, these dark winding paths
Lurking, he always finds me
Leave me, your pain taunts me
Touch me, I fear you’ll hurt me
Bind me, my body escapes
My mind, will never be freed

Male
My sweet dear
You will fear
Not what I show you
But what may never be

If you hide
You have lied
To yourself in vain
Take my hand and the rest will follow

(lead)

Female
(Chorus)
There he is again
Taunting,  his eyes upon me
Frozen, my feet in their tracks
I wait as his form comes near
Restless, My body won't sleep
Sleepless, my mind can't focus
I drown in an endless dream
Weakness takes its toll on me

Male
I am near
My sweet dear
And you must come here
To escape asylum
Come to me
Understand
You will be free when
You allow me to bind you, let go

Female
Those last words echo throughout my nights
My dreams in forever torment by your hands
Please leave me be
But I doubt my resistance is enough to stop this
It has already taken hold
All I can do now, pretend I’ve won
I can’t pretend

Between the words I speak
all my thoughts are clearly seen
You find that sanity
while I’m lost, inside of me
These dreams that beckon me
a morbid thirst, not meant to be
Buried beneath all hope
graves of mine, I won’t escape

(Chorus)

My truths have fallen deep inside me
lies take over my soul
I’ve found I always hide myself
in tales and worlds unknown
You see, I can’t reveal myself to you nor me
Deny me all confidence
say to me the wrongs I do
Your words just torture me
forcing me away from you

(Chorus)

My fears have pushed me far from you
your words get under my skin
But this, my stubborn self denial
has played and beaten me
I must stop my presumptions and remain
forever more
Consumed by night’s black pain
the only light is my hatred
This fight has taken hold
I won’t let go, I’m left for dead

(Chorus)

A storm has formed from long angers
with winds to set me free
This pool that I form beneath my feet
with tears of memories
I’ll drown if I dive deeper, yet your hand
I must let go

(Solo)

I feel the waters calling me
the cold silence unknown
I’ll drown if I dive deeper, yet your hand
I must let go
Please, you see I can’t pretend, and your hand
I must let go

(Storm)

I can breathe, I must breathe now
All this rain has cleansed all doubt
All alone, I must find him
I must look
but am afraid that if I open my eyes
I will see that I swam away
But I do, and I find
That his caring hand never let go of mine

I’m reaching for stars up above
Find the sight I have lost here below
Staring down on the world’s misery
Shed no light, it’s my life I see

(Verse)
I run,               I hide,             from mind,     the terrors within
                        No time,         no place,        my nightmares begin
                        Yes God,        no God,          what god leads me now
                        My dream,      so real,           this pain that I feel

[Chorus]
                        Can’t see,      can’t hear,     I try
No cares,       nightmares,   too real,          ask why

(Verse)
No trust          tempt fate,      loose faith,    be strong or I’ll die
                        I played,         I lost,               my soul inside cries
                        Freedom,       lonesome,     the shadows remain
                        Darkness,      lightness,       it all looks the same

[Chorus]
                        Can’t see,      can’t hear,     I try
No cares,       nightmares,   too real,          ask why

                        Lost my soul
                        This world I know
                        It’s haunting me
                        My reality
{Lead}

(Verse)
I’m bound by the walls all around
Cry for help, no reply, not a sound
I’m caught in my own fantasy
Locked away in the bedlam of me

(Verse)
Walls,             no doors,       no choice,     my mind keeps me here
                        Can’t stay,     can’t leave,    no smile, no tear
                        No one,          boredom,       still figures I see
                        Hatred,           morbid,           it’s my tapestry

[Chorus]
                        Can’t see,      can’t hear,     I try
No cares,       nightmares,   too real,          ask why

                        Lost my soul
                        This world I know
                        It’s haunting me
                        My reality

313                 follows me
313                 insanity
313                 it’s my home
313                 my only home
313

Memories, all mine
Haunting me
Eluding me
Beckoning
Replacing lost time
I know I once belonged here
And knowing who I was
Now only shadows remain
Lost voices without the pain
Some gently calling my name
Just hear me

For all that I was meant to be, and he
Who is not who he seems
Even to himself, must consider his past
Days of then, days of now
Which will be tomorrow

Dreams, the underlying forces that compel me
Fear, the counterforce of sanity that denies me
Life

This time I choose
I will reclaim my fate
And to join in the promised land
Escape


Only from within
My journey must begin
Deep inside
I must cry
I know I do belong here
This world knows who I am
Cast all the shadows away
Lost voices nothing to say
One remains calling my name
Just hear me
Somewhere, I lost my own
I now just stare, places unknown
This road we share, I've walked alone

For all that I am is not what I've been
But what I'm yet to become
To defy myself
Not by choice, but demand
For I have no answer
And I have no escape

Tear down these walls of fear
For all to see and hear
Free, at last
Look within me
Take my hand, you'll see

Replacing lost time
Beckoning
Eluding me
Haunting me
Memories, all mine

When I look in their eyes
I see who they are inside
Behind the mask they wear in vain
But can they see me too

Sometimes I see an angel
Cast from the Heavens above
Sometimes I see the Devil's reach
Taking a man's hand

His face shows the world sincerity
But inside, anger and sin
When I look into his eyes
His soul inside cries
This is what I see

Behind smiles I see frowns
Tears pour like the rain deep down
And misery disguised as joy
But can they see me too

Am I alone I wonder
Seeing what is real, obscured
A life destined to feel alone
But unlike this girl

Dreams, they're drifting far from me
The wind, the sun and the sea
All alone I look inside, destined I see
To be the island that I am
Forever
Just one understand
Take me by the hand
Just look from within and you can
You will see me for who I am

I sing my songs inside and smile
Makes me happy for a while
And I dance to the beats my heart only knows
I keep them locked away inside
Forever
Til he comes along
And sings me my song
And takes me from this solitaire
With he, my life I want to share

Would his stare even notice me
Just to see past the unknown
To pass through deceptions I make
And to find I'm all alone
Would his stare even notice me
When I can't even tell that's my own reflection
Just how will he see when I am hiding
Myself too deep inside me

I sing my songs the words unknown
Forever they change, just for me
So if you look into my eyes then you will know
The feelings trapped inside of me
Forever
Know them and know me
My reality
Only yours to see if you're free
To live in perfect harmony

I sing my songs inside my mind
Listen and maybe you will find
The beats that I dance to that my heart only knows
Feel them, or locked away they'll stay
Forever
Til he comes along
And sings me my song
I'll look to the skies up above
With he, my everlasting love

I'm begging you, just take me rain
Just carry me far (away)
(Away) to a place beyond this one
I'll leave behind the (pain)
(Pain) unforgiving, holds my hand
But comforts me (never)
(Never) deafening silence to me
Your sound stifles (all)
(All) forgotten moments in time
Where serenity is (mine)
(Mine) is this world I will not share
So stop watching me (dance)
(Dance) ing across the sky, those lights
The bellowing thunders (come)
(Come) rain, carry me far away
And take me from my pain

In your downfall I want to fade
and be unseen
Another drop just like the rest
Just one tear, another tear
Please take me with you
I just want to be forgotten
When the last rain drop falls
I vanish, into the sea, and you'll see

I hear the thunder calling me
Compelling me to (wander)
(Wander) from the world I want to leave
It follows me (always)
(Always) a reason, it beckons me
A sliver in my (soul)
(Soul) without sight, I cannot breathe
Just one breath from my (last)
(Last) ing impressions that I feel
Pressed into my (sanity)
(Sanity) eludes me, I want to scream
But sound cannot (escape)
(Escape) the delusion of freedom
For we are all (prisoners)
(Prisoners) of the fear we keep inside
And doomed to walk alone

In your downfall I want to fade
and be unseen
Another drop just like the rest
Just one tear, another tear
Please take me with you
I just want to be forgotten
When the last rain drop falls
I vanish, into the sea, and you'll see

This man I have become
Half a soul, until there's none
Shadows, they aren't my own
A step from hell, but cold as stone

This road I've taken to make you taste fear,  I will pay dear
It's lust, it beckons you to me
Its just, it threatens me
The Devil, I fear, he will come here
To claim eternity

This pain I bring to you
Twice I feel, it scars me too
Your needs, they torment me
Cast doubts on my sanity

Its fading, the gentle one
Now replaced, demons I don't know
I've so much to give don't you see
Closed are your eyes to life and to me

No screams of sorrow, yet they follow me, get under my skin
I hide, they always read my mind
I run, they'll always find
I can't escape evil and sin
Always one step behind

Solo

I defy
To beat this Hyde
That's trapped inside
And be free at last

This road I've taken, its forsaken, time to make it my past
I toss aside my mask to end this and try to reconcile
And now I must leave you behind me forever
For you can't return my love
Your hate forever inside, however, I try to take your hand
And say to you just one word, I promise
Leave, my final command

These tears I've cried inside of me
Without you, it all makes sense
Just to feel and to breathe deep knowing I do care
Although alone, I am here
And now I finally see
Awakened the dreams are clear
Somewhere out there, my destiny
True love above all else

Eyes open, but no one sees
Blind is the world, hopeless disease
They're staring into the dark
The light behind them never seen
Dead to all the world around
And dead even to thee

Just look inside yourselves,
and tell me what you see
Mindless and incoherent thought
Replacing all reason with insanity
For all you've done has gone to naught

Dreams decadent, somber screams
free will, an illusion

I walk by
They just stand there in blank stare
I call out
They don't hear me, They don't see
I touch their skin
It's so cold, lifeless
Neither rhyme nor reason
Dead inside

All listening, but no one hears
Words meaningless upon deaf ears
Please someone follow my voice
Noise just echoes from one to all
All forward motion a crawl
And all time even stalls

They wander hand in hand
Nobody can be free
Trapped in their sanitarium
Replacing all reason with insanity
Their taking turns to just become

Dreams decadent, somber screams
free will, an illusion

I walk by
They just stand there in blank stare
I call out
They don't hear me, They don't see
I touch their skin
It's so cold, lifeless
No rhyme nor reason
They're so dead

It's time to end my revolution
and within a new revelation
an intellection that's meant to be

Cast aside by my desperation
Truths to be said with exclamation
It is they who live instead of me

They walk by
I just stand there in blank stare
They call out
I don't hear them, I don't see
They touch my skin
It's so cold, lifeless
I'm disconnected
but ready to live